It has been a long while since I last posted. My family changed so much since my Mom, Marilyn, died July 15th of last year. So it makes sense that a devastating life event like that will sooner or later create changes in equilibrium both within ourselves and as a whole family...change is hard, often painful and allowing others to change can be just as difficult yet united we all are in loving Mom ... she was a wonderful Mother and Meme - she lives forever in all of us.
|Kiew-nik's Valentine's Day Card|
Personally, my relationship with my partner has gone through some shifts that have been challenging and now we are taking steps to reconcile issues that have been between us. I have been learning how to truly let go, and in doing that forgiveness comes and releases us. It requires honesty with myself and with Kiew-nik. It's a beautiful process to go through because I feel so "bare" sometimes but I trust him enough to be me. In the meantime, our boys continue to be a source of inspiration - they see fun and beauty where others may not.
|Kiew-nik & Isaac Building Our Valentine's Gingerbread House|
I have heard from Native Elders that children chose us before they are born - I always thought that it was for what we had to teach them. Now I think it's a choice based on what they can teach us, the parents.
|Momma (me!) , Ethan and Isaac|
I mentioned changes: My Dad, Andrew Nicholas, is getting married soon to a lovely woman, Carolyn Saulis. I can say that I am truly happy for them, I have seen how the sadness and loneliness was wearing him down despite him being very active and social. Now he has a spring in his step and his laughter reaches his eyes. I know in my heart that Mom had a hand in guiding Dad to someone who can walk with him for the rest of his journey in this world.
|Dad & Carolyn's Valentine's Card 2014|
I feel Mom around me, I prayed for this, to feel her presence more than feeling her loss. Her Spirit has a light, warm feeling and I talk to her often because I need her now as much I ever did. Her card reflects her: she loved green and loved floral prints plus it's trendy (she always knew the latest):
|Mom's Birthday Card, January 18th, 2014|
|A Valentine's Card for Oona and Family|
|Oona's Birthday Card & Envelope|
|Valentine's Day Card for Isaac|
|Cindy McCarthy's Valentine's Day Card 2014|
|Isaac's 5th Birthday Party 2014|
|Isaac Andrew Kiew-nik|
Born February 27th ,2009
4:30 a.m. 8 lbs. 15 oz.
Dr. Chalmer's Hospital
So the blog is refreshed and that reflects how I feel...still me but a fresher new attitude...feels like a good year to me!
Love To All